I’m so tired but I can’t sleep.

I don’t think I’m worried about anything… maybe a little anxious because school is starting? But it’s in a good way… at least, I think it is. Whatever it is, I just can’t sleep. I’ve been laying in bed all night and have not fallen asleep at all. Not even a few minutes of sort of being asleep. I’ve been wide awake all night. This is though, I’m definitely tired. My eyes feel heavy and with all the movement and work from the day before, I’m most definitely tired so I’m not quite sure why I can’t fall asleep. Maybe I’m not as well-readjusted as I thought I was but considering tomorrow’s the first day of class and my 7-ish hour day begins at 8:30, I really hope I get some good shut-eye tonight. I most definitely need it… and want it.

I’ve had Ellie Goulding stuck in my head all night. She’s great but definitely not bedtime music.
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Hello again.

It’s been over half a year since my last post but unlike all the other countless blogs I’ve created, I never forgot about this one. There were multiple occasions when I wanted to blog but I just didn’t. Something just didn’t feel right. I even really know if this is the right time to start again but something inside me wants to and I’m gonna listen. There’s something nice about knowing that pretty much no one reads this except for the occasional friend (or foe) who happens to stumble across it. I don’t need an audience, I just need to talk. So here goes.

The past few months have been nothing short of a whirlwind. I’ve gone through so much and the events which took place have formed me into what is hopefully a better human being for the rest of my life. I learned so much about myself and what it means it means to do the right thing. I’ve been forced to take a good hard look at my life, my family, my friends, my faith, my future and just about every other aspect of my life. This is the time for me to make a change–to make the transition from being a somewhat-careless teenager to a man who values morality, responsibility and is in it for righteousness. Forgive if I sound “churchy;” believe me, it’s the last thing I want to do–there’s nothing more annoying than hypocritical church folk.

I feel as though this is the time for me to re-introduce myself. It’s a time to catch up with myself, if that makes any sense and I’m taking one day at a time, one step at a time. Though I feel there is more that can be said, I don’t think I can form what I mean into words.

Hi. My name is Joel.